Imperfectly Perfect

Have you ever found yourself like Moses, standing before God trying to talk Him out of what He’s asked you to do?  “You know God, the great I Am.  I know that you are revealing yourself to me in a miraculous and amazing way as a burning bush and all.  And I absolutely love the ideas that you’ve come up with.  They are  awesome and if those were the things that I was good at, you know,  people and talking, well then I wouldn’t hesitate to take you up on your proposal.  But at this time, with the talent and abilities that you’ve given me, it’s just not gonna work.  I have to decline your job offer.” Sound familiar?  

For me it does.  I used to strive for perfection.  It was my goal, my finish line, you could almost say it was the thing I worshipped.  But then God stepped into my life.  He asked me to step out in faith into what I wasn’t good at promising He would be my strength.  He asked me to display my weaknesses in writing for all to see so that He in me would get the praise, glory, and adoration for the life changing work He’s done.  

But even in my obedience there are still hard days.  Days and weeks where it would be easier to say, “God, if you would have chosen, (insert name here) this really would have gone a lot better.  You would have drawn a larger crowd, gotten a better outcome, and more desirable results.  But those thoughts are lies.  God chooses us, like Esther, ‘for such a time as this’.   And like David He uses the little guys to defeat the giants.  Like Moses He uses those that struggle with Words as His spokespeople.  God uses our broken vessels, our weaknesses in order to display His glory, His workmanship, and to reveal Himself through us.  

So today I remind myself that I want all that God wants for me.  The hard, the things beyond my strength and endurance, the call to things I’m weakest at so that my life might be an offering of surrendered praise, a beacon that points to life’s saving grace and purpose, the glorification of our King.